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Thursday, October 19, 2017

My Last Will and Testament

When I was 15 years old, I attempted suicide. The world is so ugly, evil and meaningless and I am completely insignificant. I wish I never existed. But God brought me back, whispering to me that there's more to life. When I gave myself to Jesus at 18, I decided that if God had created me and kept me alive, He must have a reason for it, even though I can't see it.

Everyday, when I wake up, I am disappointed that I am still alive and I ask God why. Every night, I pray that God would give my life to someone else who wishes to live and that I'll not wake up again. The only reason why I have not killed myself is solely because God does not want me to. Everything I do is to please God and be a good testimony for Him. But very often, I fail miserably and I will ask God what is the use of keeping me around.

I never wanted children. Why bring more people into this cruel world just to suffer? I didn't even want to get married because I saw how my mother suffered from the actions of my father. However, God gave me a vision a few months after I accepted Him into my life: a vision of four children who will become God's precious missionaries. Because of that, I chose a husband who would, first and foremost, be a good and involved father for the children rather than merely focusing on my own preferences. 

I've never done anything significant in my life. It already takes all my efforts to merely not offend anyone unintentionally or make mistakes which harm anyone else. Even that, I can't do well. I try my best but my best is never enough. But still, I press on. Because of Christ. 

I have no physical legacies. Not a penny to my name. All I can hope is that at least I'll have spiritual legacies: my four children who God promised will do great things in their lives.

Joash, God made you creative and sensible. If you can learn how to be responsible with the talents which He has given you, you will find new ways for others to encounter God.

Jayna, God made you with great capacity for love. Your physical ailments are to help you to experience God's grace and empathise with the suffering of others. If you can overcome your limitations, you can be a powerful agent of charity.

Jaide, God made you a leader with a strong will. If you can direct your passion toward good instead of evil, you can literally change the world.

Joram, God made you the most tenderhearted. If you can resist following the wrong crowd, you can show others what it truly means to be obedient to God and glorify Him. 

Joshua, if I become incapacitated, please just let me go. I do not want to be artificially kept alive or resuscitated. I know that things will be hard if I were to leave before you do, but you can definitely find someone else better than me to help continue your life and work. Do donate every feasible part of my corpse. Since I have not done anything spectacular in life, I want to at least give others who want to live a fighting chance. 

To my non-believing friends and family, you must be sick of me telling you about Jesus, but still, I pray daily for you to know the Saviour of the world. That is my only wish for you: to see you in heaven with me.

To my fellow believers, please do not be sad if I die suddenly. Rejoice, instead! My work on earth is finally done. God is granting my dearest wish to be with Him in heaven, a place where I will no longer need to struggle with sin. I will not be hurt and nor will I hurt anyone else anymore. 

Indeed, for me, to die is great gain, to live is purely Christ. 

Monday, October 9, 2017

Children's Day 2017

I just started the tradition of celebrating Children's Day last year and thus, other than the buying of presents, there wasn't anything meaningful that I'd thought of to do which could be repeated annually. Judging from the experience of going to the movies from the previous year, I figured that the younger two are still too immature and fussy for it especially if I have to manage them without Joshua's help. So watching a show would be out of the question for at least another two more years.

In the end, I brought them to Sushi Express as a treat instead. The older two were more than capable of serving themselves. Thankfully, the revolving sushi belt was entertaining enough to keep the younger two occupied while I served them food. It was a successful experiment. The food was to their liking and the bill came up to only 42 bucks despite wolfing down 24 plates of food among the 5 of us. Check out the stacks of pink plates behind the kids in the above photo!

Tea break was a disaster though. Our church gave each kid 4 Mr Bean vouchers last Sunday as gifts so I thought to use them up. They were so excited choosing the flavours of the soy-based ice-cream and insisted on having double scoops. I obliged against my better judgement when they refused to listen to my advice of getting pancakes instead. I hate to tell them "I told you so" but in the end they didn't like the taste at all, as I had suspected, and had so much leftovers. I tried my best to eat up the durian ones because it was one of my favourite flavour but that was only two out of five scoops of ice-cream. I felt it was such a waste to throw away the rest so I bought a box of ziplock bags from the supermarket and poured all the melting ice-cream into one of them. It became a nice, chilled, chocolatey soy-based shake for Joshua to enjoy when we met up for dinner. ROFL

I asked the children to choose board or card games as their presents this time round. At home, we have Snakes and Ladders, Donkey, Tumbling Tower, Chess and Checkers which the children have gotten bored of. The older two at least could play Mastermind with me but none of them have the vocabulary to play my favourite game Taboo yet. It is time to invest in more games which we can all play together. Looking forward to happy family times enjoying our purchases!

Sunday, October 1, 2017

Lantern Festival Tradition

Part two of our mid-autumn celebration was completed tonight. Since the old lanterns from previous years were mostly damaged, I decided to buy them new ones. We then managed to continue our tradition of having a lantern walk around our neighbourhood. Now that the kids are older, they are walking so much faster! I almost wanted to tell them that it was supposed to be an enjoyable stroll instead of a walking race but then I thought that it might not be a bad thing to speed up the process after all. My battery was already pretty flat by then. *nervous laughter* 

We concluded the evening with sparklers as usual. 

They said they were barbecuing
marshmallows around the campfire

Joram is simply adorable!

At the end, my eldest decided that the music coming from 4 lanterns was becoming annoying because they were not playing at the same time despite having the same tune. So he coordinated the music by making sure that everyone pressed the start button at the same time. I was duly impressed. 

The lanterns up close

Saturday, September 30, 2017

Mid-Autumn @ GBTB

I saw some articles online about the Gardens By The Bay's lovely lantern display so I thought it would be nice to bring the kids there to celebrate mid-autumn festival this year. 

Before we went, the children ate their favourite ice-cream mooncakes for tea break. I even sourced for jelly Hello Kitty mooncakes for my no. 2 who is on a gluten and dairy-free diet so that she wouldn't feel deprived. 

We have never tried the OCBC Skyway despite visiting GBTB a few times before. Thus, the moment we reached, we went up there to enjoy the scenery and the breeze. Sadly, Joram was afraid of the height and Joshua had to carry him all the way. Kinda explains why he looked so grouchy in the family shot. Sigh...

We are holding the
Singapore Flyer
in our hands!!!

Family Pic

My girls and I

After a decent dinner at the Western Bistro, we headed out to try some interesting street food. The kids were naturally attracted to the rainbow-coloured ones. LOL Not all of them tasted good though. Hahaha... One appalling thing was that a stall was selling fermented beancurd and stunk up the entire area. That horrid smell, coupled with the hot and humid weather, made the whole experience rather unpleasant.

Next, we strolled around and tried our level best to admire the lanterns and lights while ploughing through the throngs of people and sweating profusely. I was so utterly exhausted at the end that I had to postpone our annual lantern walk and playing with sparklers in our own neighbourhood to the next night. I guess we'll not go back ever again for mid-autumn festival.


Sunday, September 24, 2017

40th Birthday Surprise

I planned a surprise birthday party for my husband's 30th birthday in the past. How can I not do something special for his 40th birthday? *wink* 

We started off with a normal quiet lunch with just the two of us to throw Joshua off the scent. We ordered his favourite food, finishing off with a giant dessert which we could not finish even half of. Afterwards, we bought some new pants as birthday gifts for him. We then headed down to JCube for our next program of the day.

I tried to gather his best friends from yesteryears for a KTV session to relive the good old days. Sadly, most could not make it. Only two turned up towards the end. So there went my idea for a grand surprise when we reached the karaoke lounge room. I had to cook up some lame excuse why I booked such a big room for just the two of us! Hahaha... *sweat* Nonetheless, he was greatly surprised to see his buddies entering the room much later on.

We ended the day's program with dinner at Aston. Joshua widened his eyes when I asked for a table for ten when there were only four of us. So yes, there were more friends coming. 

Ten years ago, I played a trick on him with magic relighting candles. I decided to do the same this time round but he already suspected it when he saw sparks flying while we lit the candles. Yet, he was very nice to play along. *grin* Watch the videos below to see the hilarious moments.

30th Birthday

40th Birthday

We are so grateful to have close, faithful friends who took the time to celebrate Joshua's birthday despite their busy schedules. It is now so much harder to meet up with everyone having heavy responsibilities at work and at home. We had such a wonderful time catching up and I must say, the old adage totally rings true: Old friends are gold!

Thursday, August 31, 2017


When Joram started complaining that our Melbourne Tram family tee was so tight that he could not put it on, I had the suspicion that it is about time to bid farewell to our very first family outfit. True enough, it was tough to put his hand through the armhole even with my help. 

We bought this set when we went Melbourne for my best friend's wedding 9 years ago. Since then, the little t-shirt had been passed down from one sibling to the next, ending up with Joram. After little brother was born, I had asked my friend to get bigger shirts for the older ones to complete the set. However, that can no longer be done anymore. At the beginning of this year, she and her husband moved to another city so there is no way to ask her to get a bigger shirt for my eldest so that the rest can be handed down to the next younger sibling and for us to give away the smallest size. 

It is doomed for retirement and will be kept together with the rest of our mementos. 

First Family Tee in 2008
8 years later in 2016

Friday, August 25, 2017

Goodbye Diapers!

Yay! I can finally say farewell to diapers for good! 

I was not expecting Joram to attain night dryness any time soon since he was only toilet trained a few months back. However, he surprised me with his willingness to avoid soiling his diapers when he sleeps. I used the same sticker system which worked for my no. 2. Of course, the attractive water-glitter stickers of his favourite vehicles helped too. He eventually achieved 20 nights of clean diapers (a star for each night) and was thus duly rewarded and tonight will be the first night he goes to bed in his underwear. Can you tell that I'm holding my breath? In anticipation of possible future "accidents", I also bought mattress protectors for him.  Just in case. :P

Stickers filled with
water and glitter 

Admiring his new sticker album

It is almost as if he was so pleased with his own accomplishment that he suddenly impressed me by changing into his school uniform all by himself when it was time to catch the bus today. I had been teaching him to change himself since the beginning of the year with little result. He had a tendency to give up easily or put his hand into the wrong hole and get stuck. I started being concerned about his lack of coordination since his older sibling all could get dressed by themselves ever since they were 2 or 3 years old. Looks like I needn't have worried at all. Praise God for that!