In the next few weeks, I have many things to look forward to: my brother's wedding, my own birthday and Jayna's arrival... However, I can't seem to get excited for any of them because my heart is broken when I see my beloved son still struggling with illness. It's been 1 and a half months since he was completely healthy and it has been extremely exhausting for all of us.
Joshua's work suffers as he has to take childcare leave whenever Joash's fever goes up and can't attend school and my body has definitely been weaker since I'm nearing the expected due date. Once, I almost fainted on my way to pick Joash up from school! Thank God that a food stall-holder helped me back home and called my husband to pick Joash up instead. I guess I was too anxious to get to Joash as the school had informed me that his fever went up again...
Since Joash is not well, he has been extremely fussy, throwing tantrums regularly and making unreasonable demands. We try not to discipline him harshly because we know that he simply wants to feel better but have no idea what can help him to do so. Still, it is soooooooo tiring for us. He has no appetite and sometimes even refuse to take his milk which contains the medicine he needs. A lot of coaxing is needed for every simple task.
There are just so many times that I wish I can just take care of him myself and keep him home till he has fully recovered but it is simply impossible for me in my current state. I'm truly at a loss and can only rely on God's strength daily, trusting that Joash is in His merciful hands. When I pray about it long enough, I realised that things could have been worse. At least, I'm grateful that after many visits to the doc, we are assured that the phlegm has not reached his lungs. He could have been down with worse diseases than the common flu.
I need to constantly remind myself to rest in the favor and love of God. Please do continue to pray with me for his full recovery. Thank you for your support all this time! :)
Joshua's work suffers as he has to take childcare leave whenever Joash's fever goes up and can't attend school and my body has definitely been weaker since I'm nearing the expected due date. Once, I almost fainted on my way to pick Joash up from school! Thank God that a food stall-holder helped me back home and called my husband to pick Joash up instead. I guess I was too anxious to get to Joash as the school had informed me that his fever went up again...
Since Joash is not well, he has been extremely fussy, throwing tantrums regularly and making unreasonable demands. We try not to discipline him harshly because we know that he simply wants to feel better but have no idea what can help him to do so. Still, it is soooooooo tiring for us. He has no appetite and sometimes even refuse to take his milk which contains the medicine he needs. A lot of coaxing is needed for every simple task.
There are just so many times that I wish I can just take care of him myself and keep him home till he has fully recovered but it is simply impossible for me in my current state. I'm truly at a loss and can only rely on God's strength daily, trusting that Joash is in His merciful hands. When I pray about it long enough, I realised that things could have been worse. At least, I'm grateful that after many visits to the doc, we are assured that the phlegm has not reached his lungs. He could have been down with worse diseases than the common flu.
I need to constantly remind myself to rest in the favor and love of God. Please do continue to pray with me for his full recovery. Thank you for your support all this time! :)
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