Faith Journey

We had decided to settle for 3 kids and even if we were to have a 4th one, it'd be many years from now. However, a series of events changed our minds. 

1) I suddenly hear of many instances whereby older women found it hard to conceive, had miscarriages or had babies with birth defects. It made me rethink the viability of getting pregnant when I'm past 35 years of age.

2) We decided that we will not want to get a car after all. That would mean we are able to financially afford a 4th child.

3) I had 2 separate visions regarding the gender of our next kid.

4) God seemed to be telling me that the next pregnancy would be different. We hope that it means an easier one. So far, I'm still coping well with the symptoms.

5) We realize that the best timing to have another kid is before Joash enters primary 1. After which, he'll need a lot of help from me to manage his studies. This is something that I've become very certain about after homeschooling him Chinese this year. I might even have to homeschool him completely for his primary education. And if I do homeschool, it'll not do to have a 9 months blank academically for him if I get pregnant then. Also, at the moment, we can still simply convert the older 2 kids to full day childcare before they hit primary school to lighten my load while I'm pregnant.

6) An infant care center recently opened right at our block. There's vacancy for Jaide if need be but I am hoping that I can still take care of her while preggy. After all, she is the easiest among the 3 kids to take care of since she is able to play by herself, has no major health, sleeping, eating or pooping issues and, unlike Joash in the past, she's content to stay at home.

7) We are now more experienced in managing the various difficulties that come with my pregnancy and have made, hopefully, better plans in coping with my incapacitation. 

It is with fear and trembling that we embark on a potentially "perilous" journey for our family but God's will is sovereign. How else to explain conceiving on our first try? That has never happened before.

Tested positive at week 3